i know you feel the same way about this, i can tell from the things that you say or is it the way that you say things? i can’t tell which it is anymore but i know that you know and i know that you feel the same way that i do.
saying these things and admitting it, however, is completely unacceptable and these sort of things could never happen. because i know that you know and you know that i know but we can’t seem to voice that we both know.
maybe because we can’t accept it, maybe because we don’t want to, maybe because we know that it’s never going to change no matter how hard we try to avoid everything between us and eachothers feelings.

i realize that i sound crazy, and maybe i’m completely wrong. maybe you’ve forgotten me, maybe you don’t care about me at all anymore, maybe you’ve moved on with your life and i’m the only one sitting here obsessing over what used to be, what i can’t seem to talk to you about, because that is forbidden.
i just want you to know that you’re that one thing i’ll never forget, that one phone call i’ll never make, that one piece of paper that i’ll never throw away, that one tshirt that i can’t seem to part with, that one book that i’ll never be able to finish and that one thing i’ll never be okay with.

My life is going so great, it's so perfect it must be unreal because there's no such thing as perfection and it's absolutely pointless to believe that it is real.
Because it's summer, I've got my windows down with music blasting, I've got no where I need to be, no one I need to please and all the time in the world to sit around and do whatever the hell my little heart feels like doing.
This has got to be way to amazing to be real, because for once I'm getting along with my dad and this sort of thing never really happens. Something must be going wrong, something has to be going wrong.
I wake up and I feel fantastic, I just can't help but to make sure that all of my limbs are still attached and my family is still alive, because this is way too amazing to be real.

Finally I realize that there is nothing wrong, that my life can be like this all the time, it always could be I just hadn't found him yet.
The boy who makes me realize that life is here, it is perfect, and I am an important part in the world.
Thank you for helping me see.